Those sweet days…..(Excerpts from the satsang of Pujya Bapuji)
By serving the jnani, his grace is bestowed upon us and his divine qualities are aroused in our internal organ readily. If I had not served my Gurudev (Swami Sri Leelashahji Maharaj), would it have ever caused Him shortage of any kind? Would it have obstructed any of His activities? No. I served Him for my benefits.
When I had gone to my Gurudev, I was given a four feet wide, five feet high and 6 feet long cottage to live in. The roof being low in height and a door that was small, the only way to enter the cottage was by stooping. I could not even fully stretch my legs inside it while sleeping. With whatever little money I had, I used to buy green grams and salt. Once in a day, I used to boil the green grams, add a little salt to it and drink it. Since the beginning I had to go through this kind of forbearance. Except for the duration for which I used to boil green grams for myself, the rest of my time was devoted to serving my Gurudev.
I used to read to my Gurudev the letters sent by His devotees and send responses to these as per His instructions. I used to water the garden, wash utensils used for preparing food for the visitors, buy vegetables from the market and carry out other miscellaneous tasks. In the remaining time I used to meditate, contemplate on the Divine and listen to Gurudev’s satsang.
I always used to take utmost care not to do anything that may displease my Gurudev. In the presence of my Gurudev, I used to speak less, within limits and only as much as I was required to.
Once Gurudev was in a jovial mood and I got a chance for some light humour. I asked Gurudev: “Gurudev! The Gurubani says – ‘Maheshwara seeks the Brahmagiani, says Guru Nanak, the Brahmagiani is the Supreme Lord Himself.’
Gurudev said: “Yes, that is true.”
I said: “So has Maheshwara sought the Brahmagiani? If not, then should I go now and tell Him?”
Gurudev exclaimed: “Shut up!”
Even now when I recall those sweet days, I am overwhelmed with joy! The bliss that I used to experience at the holy feet of my Gurudev, aha, that can nowhere be obtained. O, how I long for those days when I was fortunate to listen to satsang at the holy feet of my Gurudev! It is much more blissful to sit at the holy feet of Gurudev than to be a Guru…more auspicious…more joyful.