Puzzled by life's ifs and whats
i looked for an answer between two thoughts
It took me to an affluent terrain
as if a desert had a heavy rain
Thoughts came and passed by
i silently watched like a spy
some saintly, some common and some totally wry
i began to wonder if they were my.
my self-image became very faint
who was i bad , common or a saint ?
i realized the question was not only mine
Everyone's personality was variant with time.
So i watched with rapt attention
and there happened a striking revelation
i discovered a secret chain of thoughts
one which judges the ego's pots
On this striking revelation
the mind feared its extinction
it fired violent thoughts from the wild
my attention became suddenly mild
The thoughts flung me from place to place
as if blinded by seeing the solar blaze
The most basic wound was touched i felt
healing which would bring permanent health
All this distance been run
now there was no return
The flood came, as i stood with a little quiver
but slowly emerged a more silent river.
The silent waves went up and down
revealing places in mind's town
As thoughts passed one after one
watching them now was true fun.
Between two thoughts i saw a gap
felt like waking from eternal nap
I found the gap was always there
but driven by thoughts i was not aware
Now the search took a new turn
to tell the truth who will return?
verbal description is what all want
but how can words go where thoughts don't ?
When the answer is there, nobody to ask,
The questioner wears the ego's mask
The describer saw only the gate,
inside the ego mate its fate.
Pray to you almighty great,
present in thought and thoughtless state,
From you thoughts create the world around
in its own web the spider is bound.
Within and without is your presence
of all existence you are the essence
You are the one near and far
may we know you as you are.